Fit Friday

Late night on this one again.

Sadly, didn't go up or down this week. Being frank, getting the womanly visit and I've retained water weight. On the plus side, I know I am not pregnant. That is one thing I don't have to worry about connecting me to my ex.

Nothing wrong with kids, I want em someday. Just... I didn't want them with him after what happened.

Honest Thoughts

Feels like today the universe was talking to me through music. Not sure what it was trying to say, but it self like it all the same.

Three songs kept playing on the radio. Over multiple stations and at different times of the day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRfuAukYTKg

I haven't heard this song in forever, and it played at least 3 times today for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3tmd-ClpJxA

This song has sorta been the anthem for me dealing with the divorce. It played at least 4 times today for me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ClU3fctbGls

This one was a recent find. It played at least 2 times today for me.

I dunno what all the universe is trying to say to me today. But the music has helped me.

Work in Progress Wednesday

My work in progress this week is one of a creative and geeky variety.

My D&D Character!

I am joining in a game with a few friends online and I am rolling up a Pixie Swordmage! I used Heroforge to sort of figure out what she looks like. And -eventually- I will have the figure made. For now, going through the books and figuring her out!

Make It Monday

This is more of a making it personal post today.

Working towards getting my own place and all with my soon to be roomies.

I have two wonderful friends that literally packed up and moved down here to become roomies with me. In 2 weeks time, one has found and started a job here, the other is playing tag with UPS at the moment before they start their job next Monday hopefully. With them getting jobs, we can get our own place and I can get out of my parents house.

So making it today. Making my life my own.

Self Reflection Sunday

Another week, another step away from what I was.
Be it a step forward or a step back I dunno yet. Spent the last 4 days working double shifts at work. Yeah, working retail and all, 4 hour shifts isn't terrible. But as a cashier, in a craft store and nearing peak season, it can he hectic as hell.

Holidays and the times leading up to it can bring the worst out in people. This week alone I had to deal with someone that was convinced that half of 99.99 was 45 bucks. Literally had me walk over with them to the sign they swore said it. Granted they were wrong and they saw the sign and the look on their face was priceless when they realized that they were being an ass. Most people are not apologetic when they do something like that. But that is what I deal with. A lot.

As for the front when it comes to the divorce, still waiting for it to be official. He's over in Austria/Germany like we had planned to do together. I unfollowed him on Facebook. I don't want to see the pictures of the places that we could have visited together. He can make those memories and remember he made them alone. Once the divorce is final, I'm removing him from facebook. I really don't want to deal with him anymore.

Working really hard to find a place to live that isn't my parents. I've only been here about 20 days now. I just can't stay here. I love my parents to death, but I can't live with them now since I have lived in my own home without them. I'm 31, and it is not socially acceptable for someone my age to live at home.

Fit Friday

Week 2 folks. Kinda crazy on my end so no pictures again this week.

I am down though. I am at 267 now. Working hard, going to keep working hard on it.

Work in progress Wednesday

Again another late night!

Work in progress this week is all work related!

I work at a Michael's craft store, I also teach crochet there. I am working on the projects for October! No pics yet cause still working on things.

But what's on the list of things being made:
A fun chunky scarf
A phone cover
Baby Beanies and Booties
And a Fox scarf

Pictures will come soon!

Life smacking you in the face.

Well it finally hit today, least for a little while.

Everything sort of crashed down on me today. It took everything in me to keep from breaking down and crying. I know I am better without him. But it still hurts. Today we would have been flying to Germany today. He is posting selfies on Facebook, friends are asking if I was going too. He keeps messaging me, saying if I need anything to shoot him a message. I don't want to need anything from him. Not after what he did.

I don't think anyone knows really outside of family, least the family here in the states. I can only imagine what his family in Germany will say.

Furkid antics

My furkid Fidget never ceases to surprise me. Today was one that I never expected.

My soon to be ex brought over some mail that had ended up at his place before he left down. We had planned to go to Germany together, and we were supposed to leave tomorrow for Germany. Well, I'm not going obviously. I'm not going to be mean to his family over there, I love his Grandma to death and I wouldn't be mean to her.

Anyways, he brought over some of my mail and Fidget took one look at him and started to bark and growl, even bearing teeth for a second. She then jumped up and tried to push him away, then had absolutely nothing to do with him after that.

I was honestly shocked. And he was as well. I think it might have got to him because the way he looked at me. Sorry bud, you made your bed. Enjoy sleeping in it alone.

Make it Monday

Okay, this is a little bit of a fun thing that relates to one of my pass times.

I am a World of Warcraft player. Have been since a couple months before the first expansion, Burning Crusade, dropped.

If you have played WoW, and leveled up a character, you have more than likely encountered the bane of a new player.

Murlocs.

These creatures are everywhere in the game. And you never pull just one. Its almost like you breathe in their direction and 2 or 3 come running to attack you!

Now you can make one of your own!

This pattern is pretty easy, I made one for a friend in a few hours. Now you can have your own army of murlocs to terrorize people!

http://fancrafts.blogspot.de/2015/07/blizzgc2015.html

Self Reflection Sunday

A late night post tonight.

A lot has been going through my mind this week. The paperwork is signed now, and its just waiting the time now for the courts to recognize the divorce. I've stopped responding to his messages. He asked how me and the one pup I got to take with me are doing. She's fine. She's happy as can be, crop dusting my parents with smelly puppy farts all night. She knows she did it, and she has that puppy grin every time.

As for me, Its a mixed bag. I'm realizing how much I have stopped myself from doing, all because he didn't want to or thought it was stupid. And my eyes opening to that fact is letting me see just how open my world is now. Do I miss him? Yes and no. I miss having that someone to snuggle up to at night. I don't miss things like his father and the feeling of being behind his dad and sister.

I sometimes wonder if he misses me. The last time I really interacted with him face to face, he had another woman on speakerphone while he was making food for himself. I may have been replaced, least in his eyes. But I know there is no other woman like me out there.

I know he and my father work at the same place. My father's been there quite a long time, my ex husband, only 2-3 years or so. Call it Karma or just crazy timing. My dad told me they are about to lay off a LOT of people. And my ex's job is one of those people that their job is on the line. I don't want anything bad to happen to him. But at the same time I can't help but thing damn Karma's a bitch.

Just my thoughts for this week, things that have been on my mind.